Its a new daaaayyyy !

Soooo everything is going pretty good !
Taking senior portraits and stuff tomorrow.
Getting all dolled up today for that. yeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
2010 babbbyyyyyyyy

GOT MY MIDTERM GRADES FOR SUMMER SCHOOL.

Life Skills = A
Health= A+



The one person I want to care about me and my accomplishments didn't say a damn thing.

I'm pretty much on my own in this cold cruel world...
Sad to say but its true when things go wrong I really have no one but myself, All everyone does is says its gnna be ok when I know damn well I'm stuck in a fcked up situation. If I died right now it wouldn't even matter that's how I kno I'm on my own in this cold cruel world. I'm tired of ppl fcking saying they have a fcked up life when the shit there going through doesn't even compare to what I'm going through or what I've been through. Yeah I know there are people out there who are suffering more then me, the muhfckas complaining aint going through a damn thing. Bitch, I'm not even taking senior portraits suck on that shit !!! That's one important memory I'm not getting not loved by too many but fck it because when I die I die alone in the cold cruel world.

-Fck My Life
PRETTY MUCH >:O

Its all on me now -_-

Worst thing I heard all summer was my granny telling me ...
"Ki do your best in everything you do, if you have friends advising you to do bad don't listen to them just drop em'. Because I want you to make me along w/ the family proud and you might have to end up taking care of your brothers and Kailah I'm not feeling well I can die anydayy now. I feel horrible so please stay on the right road babes."
Do you know how bad it hurts to fcking bad it hurts to hear your grandmother talking about dying?! She's my EVERYTHING she's all I have. She's been there since day 1. When no one else gave a flying fck about KIA TORNELL JACKSON she did, Its even hard for me to sit here and right this blog, tears keep falling down my face, it hurts that bad ! Yeah I know I have others who care about me but they will never top her love for me. I don't say iLOVE you too much because I gave up on "LOVE" a long time ago but my granny lets me know theres hope. I;'m gna stop for now because this is hurting me wayy too much.

-Bye :'(

"Say what you heard so you can see what you said."

If You've Ever Thought You Had A fcked Up Life, Think Twice Take A Walk In My Shoes For A Day. Shit, Take A Day Like Today For Example WORST FCKING DAY OF MY LIFE ! Shit One Person That I Know That Might Have it BAAD Is My Bestfriend Mariah. Shit Always Goes Wrong For Us It's A Nvr Ending Story ! Literally To The Point Evrything Fcking Hurts ! It's Impossible For Me To Hide My Feelings These Days !
Why Can't Things Just Get Better?!
WITH ALL THAT BEING SAID I'M READY TO TURN MY LIFE OVER TO GOD FOR GOOD AND HAVE NO REGRETS ABOUT IT ! I'M TIRED OF ALL THE NONSENSE ! :'(

Oh man, the intensity of this poem is crazy !

Living this thing called life the BEST way I can. Yes I know I have flaws and all but doesn't everyone?! A continous cycle of pain,heartache,regret, and so much spinning around me trying to keep me down. But there's more important things in my life I need to worry about instead of being sad and letting the negatives keep me down. My Niece, & My two little cousins are comming up in a life that just might be hard just like mine. Having to be raised by someone that's not your mother but its your loving grandmother. I will not let them think that they are any less then anyone else on this fkced up earth because of what they have been through. They are just as capable as anyone else ! They are my HEROS I'd do ANYTHING for them if I had to no questions asked no second thoughts. I tell them live this thing called life the BEST way you can, and you'll end up on top ! Yeah you may have flaws BUT doesn't everyone?! & That's what makes you and individual.

I now Love the things I NEED to Love, and let go of the things I wanted to Love.

Mmm, I see as I'm maturing I have zero patience and zero tolerence for people and their nonsense and I find Myself distancing myself from more and more people each day, but in my heart im perfectly fine w/ that. Because if their not willing to support ME I DON'T NEED THEM ! :)

Latif - I don't want to hurt you [BEST SONG OF MY LIFE]

I Dont Want To Hurt You - Latif

LA.

Dear, LA how I miss you !
So I spent my 1st two weeks of summer break in LA ! Man Oh Man ! Pleassee take me back ! I fcking hate living in the Valley let alone being in Sylmar ! First of all, these grown ass freaking dirty ass men whistle at Me and Ryah and Saida anytime we walk anywhere ! AND + there's nothing to do in SYLMAR ! While in LA I spent alot of time w/ my sisters and my niece ! I enjoyed that ! This Summer has been GREAT & HORRIBLE ! all at the same time. But I'm getting through it I'm A fighter I'll get through it with my Bestfriends Mariah & TJ, & My sisters Keira & Brianna ! I have my down times with both my sisters but hey we work through em' that's whaat there for to fight and make up ahah ! I'm going to make the best of the rest of this summer 2009 ! more beach time and my trips ! VEGAS POPP`N on Aug 14th back to LA then off to VEGAS ! Yeeaahhhhh baayyybbeeeee ;) mhmhm maybe a boyfriend this summer or spark up some old flames?! who knows jut gnna make the best of it ! September 2nd ! MY BIRTHDAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY ! I can't waitttt ! I don't know what I'm doing anymore -_- But hopefully I will think of something in due time ! Welll I'm done for now ;) Byeeeeeeeeeee

Ayyyeeee, Mayynnnee Summa Time POPP`N W/ Ki` & Ash` !

So Were Sitting Here Post'd Having All Types Of Fun Ash` Came To My House It Cheered Me Up, Because This Had To Be One Rough Week ! Fcking Lost The Love Of My Life ! But It's OK Everything Happens For A Reason RIGHT?!

Ohhh YEAHHH Ash` Can have my heart or we can share it like the last slice !

Even though we bang two different hoods ! I'm On That Criiiipppp shittt cuhkz !

Yadada Boogiiiee?! Whaat that shit doooo ! Lol

Buttttt, On A Whole Different Note iLOVE This ChicC Right Here; My Ace Boon Coon ! Ahahaha We Cuss Out Bitches In Elevators & We Pull All The Major BADDIES ! Get Like Us -Outttrrroooo

*`Oh Yeah My BFF'S are Wayy Better Then Everyone Else's :)

Yoooooo Yooooo Yooooo, ASHTASTIC* on the track (;

Anyways, ha im at Kialicious' house, and i spent the night for like 2 days now going on 3, like what that shit do ? bloooooooooooooood, sooowoooop :]

This chick is theee BESTEST ever, always getting the bomb asss niggers, and shit.

The fuuuckkk ? . I love her oh so much , she makes me laugh & shit, and she always has my back ,like damnnnn. We only fight bitches in the elevator , say what ?

" yeaaah babeee " Lol, " Meet me in the ELEVATOR , Bitchhhh. " " drop me off & pick me up and 1O minutes, like ayyeeee " " You thought i couldnt free style on you, BOOO. You owe everybody on the train an apology for your shit, hoe(; "

Okayokay, welll im out this biaaaaatccccchhhh blooood,

The fade aint nuthinnnn but a haircut :D